Do you ever sit down to pray, but instead of feeling that "peace that passes understanding," your brain starts running a marathon? You try to focus on God’s presence, but suddenly you're thinking about that email you forgot to send, the weird thing you said to your neighbor, or a vague sense of dread about the future.
In those moments, God can feel a million miles away. It’s like there’s a thick, foggy wall between you and heaven, and no matter how loud you shout or how hard you "spiritualize" your thoughts, you can’t seem to hear a whisper back.
If that’s you, I want you to take a deep breath right now. You aren't "bad at being a Christian." You aren't failing. You’re just human, and your nervous system is noisy. The good news? God isn't intimidated by your noise. He’s actually standing right there in the middle of it, waiting for you to realize that hearing Him isn't about how hard you try, but about how well you rest.
The Illusion of Distance
When anxiety kicks in, our "fight or flight" response takes over. Physically, our hearts beat faster and our breathing gets shallow. Mentally, we become hyper-focused on threats. This is a survival mechanism, but it’s terrible for spiritual intimacy. Because we feel "on edge," we assume God must be on the other side of that edge.
We start to think that if we can’t feel Him, He must be gone. But here is the truth: Your feelings are real, but they aren't always true.
Anxiety creates an emotional fog, but fog doesn't move mountains. The mountain is still there; you just can't see the peak right now. Similarly, God is still right beside you. In fact, He promised in His Word that He would never leave you or forsake you. That promise isn't conditional on your anxiety levels.